sorry!

sorry i havent been blogging i've been busy lately plus things havent been going to well so yea! right now skool life is takin a toll on me! and i'm ready to scream! today wasnt any better as Ja zay was crying in 2nd and i felt like ripping someone's throat out bcuz i knew why she was crying there just wasnt anyway for me to help her!

She had enough problems on her hands so i havent been giving her anymore to worry about! So i've been mostly keepin to myself yet my bond with my mom has also been getting stronger as well! Its funny bcuz when i was datin Chris (you dont know him) i felt like i was living a whole nother life! i wasnt me anymore! but then when we broke up i was just myself again!

Except my friends told me theres no middle now! and by that i mean i used to be sad happy or in the middle now i'm either sad or happy never the middle! gah guys are evil!!!!! especially Ja zay's ex he's horrible!!!!!!!! how can he flirt with another girl in front of her!!!! HOW CAN YOU BE SO MEAN!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrr he's such a jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!! *says bad things* srry tryin to keep this G rated..........ok fine PG i'm 'bout to skip PG-13 and go straight to R i'm so frustrated but i can't! *thinks bad things*

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! srry i just totally need to vent and writing this helps me so much!!!!!!!! *listens to ipod* ok that's a little better when i listen to music it calms me down so much!!!!! hahaha see i'm happy again!!!!!!!!!! ^^ *demonic voice* BE HAPPY!!!!!!!! *evil glare to ppl who arent smiling* jk jk jk jk jk (for those of you who dont use this lanuage it means just kiddin)

Anyway Nii-san's been really nice to me lately! Lets see in lunch Nikki-chan was gone so it was just me, Sara-chan, Rachel-chan, and Megan-chan. So yeah....hmmmm. Oh Okaa-chan's cooking supper right now so it wont be long and i'll be eatin yay! i'm hungry!

lets see well 2mrrw if its not raining Otosan and i will be going to the flea market and then Andrea-chan and Jess-chan will be comin over to spend the night! ^^ then we're gonna go to church and then we'll take 'em home afterwards cuz Okaa-chan has to work Sun. Nihongo [yoku] hanasemasen as you can tell i'm lookin this up! haha!

wow this wld be bad if you visted the place's language i'm using and couldnt ask this question!

Toire wa doko desu ka?

hahaha!!!! ok, ok nope i'm not gonna quit! hmmmmm *has an idea* ok well SORE DEWA!

Key:
Nii-san (Older brother)
Okaa-chan (Mom)
Otosan (Papa)
Nihongo [yoku] hanasemasen (I can't speak [insert language i'm using] {well})
Sore dewa (goodbye)