There's not...

In so many words to really say what's been going on. Except for the fact that when I wrote that vent I was able to hold off the tears till I went to bed. I prayed to God to take away my pain and anger, becuase if I'm being honest with myself its not... its not about Chris anymore! There I said it! The wounds have healed but have left some pretty deep scars, I'm still afraid and I'm still scared that somehow the anger will find me again and the sadness with it, but whatever happiness I can get I'll take it! I'm not even sure why I was so mad... or depressed. I'm thankful to God for making me forget because I wouldn't be as happy as I am now! I must confide in this blog and say I still miss Chris, but not as much as I used to.

Well hmm I had a test today... 2 actually. And then in lunch Jess complained about why we couldn't seem to get over who we liked. It's harder for me to get emotionally close to guys now, afraid of course that I'll be broken again and that I'll let go of the happiness that I've been holding onto for sometime now. *Sigh* I'm confused on what to do now... live in the moment and wait for the return of the anger... or just wait for it?

I'm not quiet sure anymore, sorry if I'm boring you I forgot and left my homework at school! Well its due friday but still! If you get the chance listen to "Surrender" By: Barlow Girl. It's really good it should be on here I just added it, if its not http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oi4kZJTbUsM go here. I'm off bye!