I'm...

Mad, angry, sad, and depressed!!!! I'm tired of everything going all happy and dandy and then blowing up in my face at the first chance of happiness! I'm tired of pretending and living in the world of make believe and really believing I'm going to get any better! Apparently I'm not! Whatever hopes and dreams I've had are pretty much crushed and are now being flushed down the toilet of despair! Normally I would find someone to tack my anger on and blame them for a couple days without them knowing but that would be wrong! Most of the time I blame Aaron, he's hardly here anyway.

I don't believe in telling someone your dating you love them the second day! How creepy and... just plain weird! I'm tired of everything just crashing down!!!!! Yes the closest thing right here, right now is the computer so I'm mad and venting BITE ME!!!!!!!!!!!! People really tick me off! Oohhh I'm ready to scream and just lash out, punch and just... ahhhh I don't even know I'm so flippin mad!!!!!! I feel like no one can crush my heart because lets face it, the heart I had has been ripped to shreds so many times I can barely recognize it!

Suppose once first semesters over I'll get over this... I sure hope so! It seems every things against me, one shred of happiness and I get it taken away as though I'm a child worrying her mother to death with playing with a piece of string she found on the floor! Ohhh People burn me up sometimes honestly!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to face tomorrow, I don't want to go to school! I'd rather fake sick but even that won't get me out of the on coming 'talk' that's supposedly going to take place! I'm mad and if anyone tries to talk to me...they'll be getting a mouthful!!!!!!!!!! Not my friends, just the people that are making me mad and I can count them all on one hand!!!!!!

School will be brutal tomorrow, prayer is welcome and needed! Ok well most of my anger has just burnt out at the expense of this sorta, kinda, not really long vent... they never last that long unless I'm sad then I could probably go on for days! Anyway enough of that. Please pray for me! Tomorrow is going to be an unpleasant day for some unlucky people! Oh well, I guess you learn the hard way. I'll say please once but you try and make me do something I don't want to do... you meet the anger I've held in for months and months! Don't start with me tomorrow or you'll be one of the unlucky ones!!! That's all I have to say! Good bye and Good night!