My brother

Aaron hasnt been talking to me much lately and it has me worried, more worried than i've ever felt before! i miss hanging out with him and i understand that work has him strained and stressed right now, plus the fact that he's a senior about to graduate and mom's pressuring him about what college he's going to go to has taken its toll on him... poor Aaron. But with all that in mind he has no time to hang with me! But of course he has all the time in the world to play ping-pong with dad, last night i played him a little bit and then i played dad and i watched his face light up as he and dad began to play an acutal game! it seems i'm once again left out of the picture!

Of course me being the little sister would possibly have nothing to do with it right?! well i dont know! Sometimes i feel like an only child i very rarely see Aaron and the times i do, he's to busy for me. i understand he's about to graduate and go to college but wouldnt you want to make the most of the time you have left and spend time with mom and i, and stop running off to your friends and gf?! well ok i guess it would be different if i was the one graduating, with the job, with the bf and wanting to spend time with friends.... but still! i would want to make time with my little sibling and mom and dad and aunt whose pratcially a second mom anyway, before i left for college! tell you the truth i'm not ready for college!

Still its something to think about... but i already know where i'm going! community college something close to home! Aaron's really important to me! he's one of the most important people in my life! i used to look up to him... i still do.... but its getting harder and harder to look up to someone (realistically) you very rarely see. So.... once again i'm left alone.... GAH! i miss him so much! but right now things again have been compelty and utterly strained!!!! i have no one to hang out with and i miss that! those carefree days out on the trampoline, when we went to my aunts and uncles pool (different aunt and uncle) i guess i miss when it used to be just me and Aaron! well... i'm off! bye!