Hello

Well today has been very interesting... i miss lunch all the laughter and comedy tht bubbles up in our mind and spews out as the next table over stares at us as though we've gone nuts. Seriously they do... but i also miss First and Second... so much fun Jes say acting crazy and Sunshine asking us constantly why we always have food! DUH WE'RE HUNGRY! HAHAHAHA! i miss Sunshine i was supposed to give him a hug like 2 days ago but i forgets to... Invader Zim was on this morning.

Hmmm, what to write about. i kinda have a story forming in my mind... but i dont know if i should write it... hey! well no... i think i'll write something and whatever comes out, just comes out!

Life stands still it seems sometimes your always stuck in the moment, wishing and wondering when it'll pass. Nothing seems to pass when your sad... well it does but pass slow it really does! Walking the halls you find yourself wondering is it.... is life sometimes even worth it... wars going on, people hating you... there is no love.... it has died.

Sometimes death seems better than living... at least when your dead you have no cares... no worries... But you still wonder would it be worth it... to know the tears you've caused the ones who have cared and still do care about you. Sometimes you sit alone and wonder your heart pounding as your eyes roam over all the things that could hurt you... i suppose that's when cutters come into play... where has my mind gone to? Well... suppose i shall finish it... You hurt so bad and yet you can't feel the pain you've inflicted upon yourself....

i think sometimes we've all thought about it maybe once in passing, your mind roaming over subjects and yet it just strays to there for one second it touches on the subject and you pull your mind back to where its supposed to be... But you've already thought about it just once... in passing... you tuck it away for future study and find yourself at home researching it!

How crazy you've become obssed on the subject! you want to know more and yet... it makes you sad that there is so limited searching! So... like any other thing you think about it long and hard, write notes watch t.v. and think.... just think about it...

sorry i'll see if i can finish it later