Does it even matter?!

One way or another i'm just going to screw something up!!!!!!! Today's agenda, how about ME SCREWING EVERYTHING UP LIKE ALWAYS!!!!!!!! I'm tired of it, tired of being the one who just screws it up! What does it matter anyway! My mom keeps saying i have to love myself for someone else to love me but i just... i can't love myself! When i look in the mirror i'm pointing out what's wrong with me! Or if i'm not doing that i'm beating myself up!

On a daily basis! Maybe that's why i'm so tired all the time? Or just so depressed because i'm always beating myself up! I dont know if it comes with just being a teenage girl or what sorry guys but i dont see many of you beating yourselves up and endulging in chocolate to make your problems go away... well to try and make them go away shall i say! Seems like everyday i always do something to screw someone over!

I sleep fine but i wake up tired and ill like always but Aaron's girlfriend Katie does the same thing as me so i'm assuming its age and the fact that all girls go through this? Now for those of you with some smart A comments here's to you! I know people have it worse than me! I know that, i know i may be throwing a pity party but you know what you can do with your comment?! SHOVE IT UP YOUR BUTT BECUASE I AINT LISTENING I'M HAVING A HORRIBLE DAY AND IF YOU WANT TO MESS WITH ME GO AHEAD!!!!!!!! I DARE YA!!!!!!!!!! I'm pissed, i'm tired and if anyone messes with Jenny again i swear i'll take my water bottle and shove it so far up there butt it'll have to be surgically removed from their nose!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dont mess with her, if you do you mess with me! Remember that!!!!!!!!

Today sucks! I've been embarrassed and i'm ready to punch my ipod becuase its not charging and the fact that... ahhhhhhhhhhh why would you care anyway! Who even cares what does it matter, its just another day! It'll pass right?! Whatever! Who cares anway?!