Venting!

It's on days like this i miss you the most,
But when i truly think about life,
I realize its sometimes good to be without,
Yet i can't help wondering what your doing now.

Sometimes i get aggravated,
Sometimes i get sad,
But most of all i wonder who would care if i wasn't here,
We each have our lives and sometimes i wish mine wouldnt count.

Because of all the screwed up things i've done,
But as i sit down and think,
I remember a lot,
Sometimes being without is just about as good as it gets.

Ooook no idea where that came from but i'm tired, and sad because i dont think i'll be able to go to the dance tomorrow and well i feel sad for other reasons. It seems like all of my friends are out having a good time with each other while i'm stuck in the house bored, and aggravated because i keep hurting myself, with walls, and tripping and all that good stuff. Ugh, right now sometimes i wish i were someone different, someone whose more fun and actually takes chances! Something i'm not so accustomed to doing! But i realize i have a good home life and i wouldnt trade for anything in the world but still imiss my car! I could actually go out and do stuff now i can't *sigh* sorry whatever, just venting!