Just wanna...

Blog! i guess i havent done enough except for the random writing but that doesnt really tell you about my day now does it? Anyway i dont know how i'm feeling right now, with Angel playing matchmaker for me i feel flattered yet afraid. I mean sooo i met this guy at Sara's who strangely enough has the same name as my bro! hahaha. They call him Turtle haha, anyway he's 2-3 years older than me i say 2-3 because my bro Aaron is 2 years olders than me and he's 19 and will be turning 20 in October and then i'll be 18 in December but anyway he just turned 20. He's sweet and last night well we really werent paying attention to Twilight.

He held my hand under the blanket we shared and i cannot begin to tell you how good that made me feel! I'm not even kidding, with my past guys they moved to far to fast! It skipped hand holding to them wanting something i told them wasnt gonna even happen so dont expect anything! So i'm not used to... hmmm a healthy relationship! he didnt ask me out but i mean we cuddled on the floor and throught the movie Jenny, and Sara and Angel would suddenly go 'Awww' and i'd look at the tv and Bella and Edward werent doing anything so i knew they had to be talking about us.

Apparently we made a heart on the floor by the way we were laying! Angel even asked me if i liked him and i said yeah and she asked if she could tell him, and i told her only if he liked me back. He said a bit and of course she gushed to him, he hugged me before he left and i went outside and kissed him on the cheek then said i should get back inside while i was searching for the door handle that seemed to had disappered!

I mean i really like him i do and he's sweet and i havent been held like that in goodness knows how long and it was just nice to feel like someone besides my friends acutually wanted me, not sexually but like wanted to bond ya know? With my other boyfriends it was like they wanted sex and after about a million no's they left! Thing is i've never had a healthy relationship with a guy besides friendship! And with one guy i ended up holding his hand not him reaching over and holding mine like Aaron did..... ok i might just use Turtle.... nah i'll use Aaron i'll say A-Ron for my bro k?

I'm not used to feeling really wanted by a guy! Ya know, it was nice and i got stuck in Sara's tree and if i had let go i would've fell on my back but he came up and held me so i let go and he didnt like immediatly just drop me to my feet he held me for a second or so and then after i looked away he let me go. I'm sure my face was really red and stayed red making that i liked him even more obvious. ok now i'm turning red i'm going to wrap this post up by saying.... PICKLE TREE! hahahaha didnt expect that did ya?