pictures galore!

Ok so now i'm going to upload the pics of my loot that i've been meaning to share with you guys! Ok so this one is at my Aunt's 50th b-day party and the theme was menopause! i just thought that was funny ok here's some more!

this shirt i picked out at Khols and got it for my b-day from my Aunt Kathy

got this at Khols to same thing as before haha! Got this at Hot Topic cute aint it?this is a closer pic of the front of the shirtthis is a closer pic of the back of it

these boots mamma got me at Shoe Show

Ok the cross earrings i got at Claries and the ring and other earrings i got for my b-day from Aunt Kathyok first one is a close up of my tie necklace (Claries) and the cross and bracelet are from Hot Topic got this book today! Jenny got this for me for Christmas! ^^ its a dog calandar arent the puppies sooo cute? and a journal which i use to record my poems and soon to be my very first song hehe! and i'll post the glovelets later, one pair i have to tie around my wrist and its late and i dont feel like doing that so enjoy the pics hope you did peace out!

Hot Topic

i went there today! I was sooo excited! i got 2 new books at Barnes and Noble, Charmed and Betrayed a new series (about vampires yes!) that i'm starting and i ordered another book that i needed (yes about vampires) Kiss of Crimson that's in a series i'm trying to read! Sooo then we went to the Olive Garden to eat to celebrate my b-day and let me tell you this everytime we're supposed to go out and celebrate it i get sick! So we did it today and i'm still a little sick but not like i'm in bed with about 4 thick sheets covering me sick!

But finally momma Lisa showed up and she was supposed to come with us to the mall but Zion her daughter wanted her to come get her and take her home. So she left and we went to Hot Topic i got 2 things! a shirt that was 36 and glovelets that were 10! And most people know that Hot Topic isn't the cheapest place but i owe my mom 9 dollars so you do the math! But Aaron called me! He got me (from ebay! his most precious sight ever hehe) a touch screen Mp4 8gb for 47 dollars! (I owe him once again) but how amazing is he?! He found another for 16gb and he's getting it for himself and giving me the 8!!!!!! He's the best brother in the whole wide world i tells ya!!!!

So anyway that's about it and i will post pics whenever i can find the time to do just that and to let ya'll know how pathetic i am i'll tell ya this! Momma Lisa got a Twilight gift card and i have it in my room right now! Yeah no money or anything on it but i'm keepin it! ahaha bye ya'll!

Drabbles prt. 18: Friends, Life, Crushes!

Its all so confusing dont ya think? I mean seriously! Come on now one minute every things ok and the next your friends balling because some *insert word* head is messin with her emotions! Ugh pisses me off! Ok well lets see..... yeah i just about covered it all! ahaha.... ok i see Rosie now where's Ace? If you'll excuse me.... nope i hear him! Ok he's alive!! And i can't see.... i'm gone to go get my glasses peace out!

Drabbles part 18 is off figuring out the mysteries of life!

Drabbles prt. 17: Song Writing

Is sooo hard i'm serious i'm not done with my song yet but i need some help! Jenny mind helping me? Ronnie? Ok well i'm not sure about you Ronnie you'd laugh! but help would be nice volunteer if you wanna help *puppy dog eyes* i'll give you something for your troubles when we return to school if you dooooo!

Drabbles part 17 is recruiting song volunteers!

It hit me!

This just sorta hit me so lets see where it goes shall we?

His boot collided with her stomach and she flipped back, landing on her back hard. She groaned and rolled to her side trying to see past the white hot pain behind her lids. He laughed ruthless as always, she wanted this fight she was going to get it. As he told her before he would show no mercy and she knew what she was getting herself into, she chose this and he wasn't done by no means. He kicked her again this time harder than the first sending her sprawling to the hard earth again.

The breath whoosed out of her lungs and she wished she had never asked for this fight... but knew this would make her stronger in the end. His tripp pants dragged aganist the snow the pain and hurt he'd felt for the past years was slowly leaking into body instead of hovering around him as it always had. The cool night air blew his hair away from his face and he kicked her again this time harder than the last, always harder than the last. "Stop..." She whispered her breath coming out in spurts as she struggled to draw every ragged breath in she could.

"You wanted to fight! So get up and fight!" He commanded hands balled into fists. She slowly staggered up; his fist collided with the lower part of her jaw. She flew back skidding down a hill straight into the cold murky water. Legs numb she tried to push off of the water's floor but couldn't.

The anger was slowly dissolving as he watched from the inside of his mind what he was doing to this girl... to this innocent girl who needed no not needed who wanted his help! He dove into the cold water and dragged her up to the hill, the snow melted where her chest touched and he pounded her back trying as hard as he could to get the water out. She coughed and sputtered until water shot from her mouth making her cough and gag.

"Welcome back." He said drawing his knees up and watching her try to stand up.

"Welcom back my a... butt! Da... Dang it! Why'd you save me?" She questioned.

"I really don't care what language you use, honestly I don't. All I care about is that your still alive so we can finish what we started." He cracked his knuckles.

"Maybe another time I'm tired... and I have to get home."

"Home? You call that place home? Yeah I'd call a place where a coven tries to kill me on a daily basis home to!" He shouted.

"It's not what you think! It's just... May would never do that neither would Abel! It's mostly Benjamin that does it anyway, he's just trying to help me... by the way I'm Luna." Luna said all anger smuged from her features now.

"I'm Caden. Yeah it pretty much is what I think, so thanks for confirming that for me." Caden shrugged and got up, "But its none of my business, you came to me for help so I'm giving it to you." He shoved his hands into his pockets and looked away.

Luna got up and staggered forward, "So why are you really helping me?" She asked her eyes questioning.

"Because I'm hoping you'll get out of that coven. The better off you are without them the better you'll be. Now if you'll excuse me my pack awaits!" Caden smiled and kicked his boots off, gathered them in his hands and was off the snow dissolving where his feet touched.

"Luna!" The shout startled her into realization, she turned to see Benjamin come up hands on the hilt of his sword. He striked her across the cheek with his hand and snarled, "Where the hell have you been?" He didn't give her a chance before he kicked her in the spot Caden had.

Luna doubled over and shook her head. Should she reveal Caden's pack she would be dead! Luna kept her mouth shut the white hot pain seering through her closed lids. "Benjamin! Benjamin stop! May get him!" It was Abel, May grabbed Benjamin as Abel lifted Luna up into his arms.

"Where were you?" Benjamin shouted snarling fangs exposed.

His words were like acid being poured into an open festering wound. "Bite me." Luna said a small smile playing at the edge of her lips. Benjamin snarled and fought his brothers mate to get to Luna.

"You bi-"

"Enough!" May shouted before he could even finish his sentence. "Don't you call her that! Leave her alone!"

Luna jumped from Abel's arms onto the ground, "As of now I remove myself from this coven." Without a backward glance Luna walked the snowy path her gaze drifting to the road every now and then making sure she was on the right track.

She saw him before he saw her, when he did spot her he knew why she'd come. "Looking for a place to sleep no?"

"Yeah." Luna said tiredly.

"Come inside." Caden bowed down and sweeped a baseball cap he didn't have on earlier off his head and let Luna inside.

Update!

Ok i'm feeling better thanks for the comments guys made my day! Well some did others *shifty eyes to Ronnie* anyway! This New Year's i should hopefully be at a party! yay! New Year's party not sure yet but what are you guys doing for New Year's just curious!

Being sick...

Sucks!!!!! I'm sick right now and i've had the minor cold chills and i slept in from 3-6 and i was half awake when mom told me she was going to walmart... oh this'll make you laugh! At 2:58 Rachel text me! i had my phone off cause i didnt wanna answer any texts cause i was tired! So i looked at it around 7:51... she locked herself in her room! The door handle broke... wait i'll just get my phone and type what she wrote! "Call my house and tell my mom that my door knob is hung and i can't get out of my room." so it text her and asked her if she got out she said,"Yes i pulled the door off the hinges."

If you know Rachel (Raven) then you know she's pretty strong and this sounds like something she would do! Now i'm feeling better and its 12:30 right now... sooo yeah... ok i'm off to go do something peace out!

Bored... bored.... oh yes i'm bored!

I have nothing to do and i'd rather not start an episode of Scrapped Princess because chances are Aaron will return when i'm halfway done! Soooo i'm sitting in a spiny chair with nothing to do debating whether to go play Paper Mario for a while or just sit here and type useless stuff because i'm to lazy to really move! Hmmm i'm in a predicament, plus one of my fav songs is on and i really dont feel like moving because of it.... ok well now that i've bored you to tears or sleep i'm going to go play video games and sing my little heart out! woooooohoooo! whose with me?! *is gone to go play games and sing her heart out!* Peace out!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Early Christmas at church

Every year at church around this time we have a dinner and exchange gifts. This year my friend Melissa got me a wolf fleece blanket for my b-day! It's sooo soft and warm and amazing! i love wolves! and its sooo beautiful to! and i gots more fuzzy socks wooohooo! they feel so good on my feet. Right now i'm sorta kinda not really waiting for Aaron to get home, him and James went off to Hickory today to shop. Tomorrow i'm going to Christian Ministries and help pack boxes, with jokers Robert and Edgar! and Steve might be joining us! Then later we're going out to eat for my b-day since everyone's off and then... we're going... dare i say it? SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love shopping! and hopefully i'll get Aaron's and Dad's gift tomorrow night also! which reminds me i need a pic of my blankie to show you guys! *goes off to hunt for a working camera* There's a pic of Aaron also not a recent one but he's growing his hair out so he looks kinda like this! and up there is a pic of my blankie thanks to mom for taking the pic for me! Ok so... yesterday my aunt Kathy had a surprise party for her b-day which is on Christmas day! the theme was hot flashes! Yes you can sorta guess her age but it was sooo much fun and funny to! ok well i'm off, i might blog later! bye!

When will people learn?

When will people see,
What your doing to me,
How you treat people from one day to the next,
When it all comes crashing down I won't be there.

I have my own life to live,
And I'm tired of this crap,
Why do you need him,
I thought there was more to you than that!

You said a lot that made sense,
Now what your doing it doesn't,
It makes me want to scream or maybe want to cry,
I told you I'd be there you know that I'll try.

I can't be there forever,
I know that it can't possibly be true,
But when will you figure out,
He's not the one for you?

I'm tired of telling you,
I'm tired of the things he does,
But until you finally learn,
I'll just keep on telling you what I've said before.

I hate when he makes you cry,
When I'm the one picking the pieces up,
Your my best friend and you know it,
But I can't keep doing this I think it's time you learn to fly.

So spread your wings and jump,
It may be a little hard at first,
But as they say time heals all wounds,
And your wounds have just begun to heal.

I can't always be there for you,
So I leave you with this note,
You'll be my best friend till the end of time,
But I can't tell you what you already know.

You may think this is some kind of joke,
And maybe it is,
But until all this is settled,
I'm out and I'm through.

You'll think me for this one day,
Maybe not even ever,
But for once I have to think of me,
And that's just how it is.

I've been to giving and to kind,
It's time I spread my own wings and fly,
I'm tired of this nest,
It has nothing left to offer.

So I'll see you on the other side,
Just remember when you get there,
I did this for your own good,
And I had to spread my wings and fly... I had to think of me.

It's just been...

One of those days! Where everything starts off good but then in 3rd period ends up getting worse because you bang your head aganist the chair trying to get your stuff! Yes smart me, i know i haven't been on here in a while and posted but i have nothing, honestly and still dont, to say! So i'm just randomly typing crap so you'll have something to read. I've been off in my own little world a lot so i'm not sure what's really going on in life so yeah.

I tried writing a little bit of Stray... i dont think i'll be posting that anymore... i just don't wanna deal with the hassle of it all and besides its not really that good, its ok but whatever. I'm thinking about just giving up because i feel like all my characters do is talk! and then i dont explain things that well and its just one big mess! I might continue writing it but do something else in my spare time! Also i have a project for History i have to do and let Mr. Mowry see sometime before 2nd semester starts!

Today we watched Of Mice and Men, we read the book and the movie was pretty good and funny even though i guess its supposed to be sad! Dominik blinked when Lennie was shot and he asked Mrs. Payseur to rewind it so he could see it again! its a great book... *sigh* i have yet to finish Christmas shopping! i have to order Aaron's gift and dad's and i'm done but still i just... well i'm not in the spirit! I feel like this year to me it'll just be another day and i hate to be like that but i'm so stressed and i wont be happy till i get Aaron's gift and dad's because i feel bad that i already have moms and my aunts and not theres to!

I mean dad keeps saying he dont want anything but still i want to get him something dang it! I have no new material to read, my bookshelf is full of books that are well sorta childish to me and that i know i'm not going to read anytime soon and besides Twilight, and Midnight Rising and Because I'm the Vampire that's why, and maybe like 2 more or so i dont have anything! Ugh its soooo annoying! I just need something to read and i'm kinda mad cause i dont have anything so grrr! Ok well apparently i do have something to talk about and oh my gosh!!!!!! Wal Mart was out today, well the power the whole strip mall's power went out! Apparently some idiot ran into a power thing and it knocked all the power off!

Be careful when you drive! dont act like idiots! I dont care if your phone rings DONT PICK IT UP UNTIL YOUR STOPPED!!!!!!!!!! Morons well i'm off to go eat supper peace out!

Drabbles prt. 14: 17

i'll be 17 tomorrow i'm soooo excited! more posting stuff later! bye!

Drabbles prt. 13: The Allen and Craig show

Right now is my new favorite thing to watch on Youtube! its really funny the guys who did Twilight, Dark Knight spoof and Fuzz are the ones who make it! its really quiet entertaining and if your bored with nothing else better to do its really funny! i think it is anyway, but then again i have a weird sense of humor so i find just about anything funny! even if its stupid i'll find some comedy in it somewhere! So Ronnie and Blade back off! haha! mostly Ronnie because he's corrupted Blade into not liking Twilight! oh well anyway i'm off to go watch it, bye for now!!!!!!!

Drabbles part 13 is off singing we're buds!

Drabbles Prt. 12: Videos

I have some new videos up on here toward the bottom, Twilight Spoof, Dark Knight Spoof, Fuzz (if you like the Mario Bros. you'll get a kick out of this!) and Garbage Man Flirting! Watch and enjoy!

Drabbles part 12 is off playing Mario Party 6!

Stray exert

"No!" I shouted, Rory stopped and fell to his knees. He began to cough violently, so violent he coughed up blood. I reached my hand out but that was all I could do. Rory grabbed at his throat and Bonnie was in front of him crying and prying his hands off his throat.

"Rory! Rory what's wrong?!" She cried tears streaming down. I could only watch in horror as this scene before us unfolded. "Rory!" Bonnie continued to cry. Calling him wasn't going to make him speak, nothing was. So what could I say to ease her pain? But I knew the answer before I thought the question; nothing, I could do nothing but watch. Rory finally stopped and fell, Bonnie caught him before he fell in his own pool of blood.

"I'm... ok." He said between spasms.

What was going on? Why was this happening?! And Felix what about him, he wouldn't tell anyone would he? If he did... I didn't think he would but how would I face him? I couldn't tell him what was going on, he knew and if he for one second was alone with me one of us wouldn't come back. But Felix was the least of my worries, I had to deal with the fact that I was going to tell a total stranger I killed my sister then turn right around and tell Caleb?! Possibly Bonnie her best friend, I would have three people who hated me, how lucky was I?

Rory seemed ok just exhausted. He sat on the floor and wiped the blood off his lips he looked like a small child, eyes round, lower lip trembling and his whole body shook. He kept muttering to himself, something about he'd learned his lesson. I didn't know what to do, I guess I could act like Bonnie but I couldn't do that.

My mind scurried back to happier and safer times. Back to when Vivian was alive, when it was just me and her and no one else. Before I... we... knew that I would kill her! Before any of this crap even started, I could think of happier times but even though I wanted to think of all this I couldn't. My scars... my wounds weren't healed and pouring salt on them would burn and I wasn't ready. I couldn't go back, I wouldn't think about that!

I guess you could say I was a hermit and in a lot of ways I was. But that didn't stop me from wanting to claw at my minds eye, and if I could do so I would! Caleb's arms tightened around me and this time I didn't protest when he brought me into the circle of his arms, instead I welcomed it. Forget the fact that we'd known each other about a week, Vivian had known him a while and for her to keep in touch with him said a lot. But did that mean I had to befriend him as she had? I didn't think these feelings I felt for him were all that friendly. A deep longing a yearning to just be with him, to just be near him! I pushed those thoughts away and concentrated on the warmth that raidiated from him.

His skin was silky smooth, his to big hands covered mine in a strange gentleness. How could he know I was hurting? How could he know what kind of pain and turmoil I was wallowing in, all the self-confindece and pride stripped away till I was an empty shell.

I had never told anyone yet, this guy I hardley knew was helping me cope and I had never spoke a word! A sob was caught in my throat and I choked it back, passing it off as a cough. "May I talk to Annabelle alone?" Rory rasped. Caleb looked at me and I nodded, Bonnie was up and waited at the door for Caleb, she'd probably already heard what he was going to say. The door softly closed and Rory turned back to me. "Bell I don't know what to say really. Your secret is a burden to us all..." He said it bluntly. "I would suggest you go see a Seer but I'm afraid the same thing will happen. Vivian once told me that you should go to your parents grave." He said.

Drabbles prt. 11: 104!

How is that possible! While i'm scraping tooth and nail to get at least a C in Physical Science Ronnie comes bounding up with a 104!!!!! How is that even possible?! That's sooo not fair! Ok i'll admit it i dont study for tests i never have and i sometimes forget my homework but honestly come on! I fail the tests all the time and i do the corrections and yet i'm stuck with at least a C while he's prancing around with a stupid 104! Grrr

Drabbles part 11 is punching some serious walls!!!!!!!

Drabbles Prt. 10: Scrapped Princess

Is my new anime that i shall be watching and so far its really funny! and i love it!!!!! if you wanna watch it go to veoh.com and type in scrapped princess english dub episode 1, or just copy that whole thing and do it but its awesome!!!!!!!!!! Oh and Ronnie if it makes you feel any better Chris (who has an extremly looooong name! and goes by that for short) reminds me of one of your characters remember when the robber comes into the bank and steals the money and gives the people refreshments and puzzles? he reminds me of that! haha! ^^

Drabbles part 10 is off watching Scrapped Princess! and laughing at Leo... poor Leo!

Drabbles prt. 9: Lockers

Are used for storing things, not banging your head aganist them while crying angst and hoping some huge black hole would open up from the center of the universe and swallow you whole! Well that's just about what lockers are good for... and nothing else really unless your like some people at our school and wanna store your drugs or alchol there! Then again i guess that's fine to... up until the point you get caught and suspended.... what?! people do it! I'm just saying it! Gosh!

I know some of your are like, whatever and others probably have their mouths hanging open! Oh no she didnt! Z snap! I have officially gone insane! Happy now?! I blame my lack of sanity weeee! I've never had enough sanity to run on so now my mind is pulling from what it thinks is sanity but in truth is insanity! Tonight i shall be freezing my butt off outside! Ahaha Jenny just told me she ran into her sisters run and screamed, Tater Nuts, laughed and then ran out! Yes it was my idea!

She also sent me 4 pages of bumper sitckers! i was so excited! ahaha Drabbles part 9 is getting its butt froze off.

Just need to get it out!

What was the point? It wasn't going to happen anyway so why was I still moping around? What was done, was done right? I mean I knew I couldn't change the past so why had I insisted that I try? It was impossible and stupid! I rolled onto my side and let out the gust of air I didn't know that I was holding in. Gypsy walked in tongue lolled out to one side in a lopsided grin, or that's what I took it as, and promptly sat down on my back. "Oof." Was all that came out and I was forced to hold my breath in because she was heavy!

I thought about back to the time when I was still in the dark... more like the light where I had no idea I was what I was! And honestly it astounded me as much as it astounded them that I was this! That I had wings, white no less, producing from my back and a sword and a belt and a scabbard hooked to my belt! I think it surprised Winter more than it did Azazel, Winter swore up and down I was going to turn into a huge furry werewolf, but imagine her surprise when I came back with white wings hooked to my back, and in very poor condition.

She took one look at me and ushered me inside, Gabriel hot on her heels. It was a night I would never forget, nor was I allowed to.

I'd really rather...

That someone tell me just what is going to happen! I'm tired of this suspense! It's killing me and i'm just waiting for someone to wake me up and tell me this is a dream. My heart just hurts and i feel like things are being twisted and i'm forced to be on the defensive all the time because its so not what i did! Ugh! Its starting to piss me off but really whatever ya know?!

Well... i could... but i'll spare you!

With all the gory details of yet another drama! Yes that's right once again drama reigns in our group and it's taking its toll on me! However i explained to my mom everything and it helped me so much. She told me to pray about it, and she's right but like most people I'm ready for that quick fix and I'm wanting it so bad i can taste it! But as usual i don't always get what i want. I'm thinking about talking to Angel ya know getting a mediator so its just us 3 so no one is there to pick sides and to make sure there isn't any yelling or screaming.

Now while i don't mind the yelling and screaming I'm sure its not appropriate behavior for the library! I think we'd get kicked out after a time. But then again who knows... ok anyway back on topic! Most of you know why i havent been on here, oh my gosh i journaled in my journal today in school and i wrote like 3 pages! i dont usually do that! i usually do a short sentence to half or a whole page, but 3?! That's pretty pimp i must say haha! Ronnie i heard you liked rap! Ok well loooved it! Haha anyway i'm working on Stray again and i'm on chapter 4 so that's some good news save the worst.

Oh well i'm soo hungry so i'm off to see what's for supper dudes peace out!

Drabbles prt. 8: Computer, Virus, and Free Music

What have we learned today? How about dont download something that lets you download free music! Mom had to hire an expensive computer man to come clean up our mess.... oooppps! Ok sooo... ummm well Drabbles part 8 is busy trying to escape the virus world.