This is different.

I'm going to take a break from my drabbles and just write something... well i guess meaningful? I'll take a break from the guy/s i'm crushing on, but i'm very sad. Yes this post is about a guy but a different someone i've known all my life. Yep my brother Aaron my hero i secretly look up to. My mom's talking to him on the phone now and she said something about him and Katie getting married maybe one day! I'll admit it, i'm jealous of the girl she sees him everyday and i dont! He's always at school, with her, or work! When i do see him we dont talk, i mean but still sometimes i really miss him, well ok i always miss him.

He's my brother and ya know i'm so used to him barging into my room while i watch tv or read and demand my attention while we play video games, i miss him coming in my room armed with sock 'em boppers and pounding me with the soft cushion of them while i'm on the phone, miss him taking my diary and running with it while i chase him down screaming for him to give it back. I miss it all! We dont play video games or hang out anymore like we used and as usual my mom was right when she said i'd miss him when he left! Ugh, it sucks. i know we didnt always get along but still he's my brother and i just want to hang out again.

I know he loves me and wont admit it, but what brother will admit to his annoying little sister (yes i'll admit i annoy him among others) that he loves her? No brother unless their drunk! In which case i'm sure some might have memory loss and forget who there siblings are, much less everything else that clouds their drunken stupor! But that's not the point! What i'm saying is i really do realize now what my mom was saying when she told he wasnt always going to be here. I took it for granted and trust me it sucks! Even though yeah sometimes i wished i was an only child i'm glad i'm not. So Aaron didnt talk to me about my secrets and listen to me when i'm down but he did pester me to hang out with him, he knew our time was limited yet i thought we had all the time in the world!

But you have to grow up sometime and Aaron's 19 he's certainly grown up a lot. Well sorry if i've bored you i just needed to get this off my chest.