Red pour

The lies become more frequent,
The pain becomes more numb,
All the while I'm sitting here holding on,
Grabbing and pulling holding onto you.

The blades become more sharper,
The blood flows more freely,
One, two, three, four,
All the knives locked up in my drawer.

Noticing the silver metal,
Wanting nothing more than to hold it,
Run it through my fingers,
Let the red pour.

Sick....

Sick... yeah i feel like it. Not like sick with a cold but just sick! There's no one i trust this with, no one i don't even trust this computer this... this place! But its all i have! I tried it... just to see if i could do it... i irritated my skin a little but nothing no one will see tomorrow. And if they do i can just pass it off as i scratched myself... but i dont know why i did it! It hurt but i didnt press hard enough! Oh my gosh i really am sick in the head! i just... i was so scared... so sad... and i cried because that's all i could do! I just... i'm tired of not getting any better i'm tired of hurting! Why wont it stop?! Yes Ronnie i'm emotional, yeah for my own good but if you want to start with me so help me! You have never seen me when i'm like this!!!!!!!!!

I dont know why i did it... i just thought maybe i could feel something and i did. It hurt but i'm just not myself and i'm so scared... so very scared. I just want to be normal again and after the stupid stunt i just pulled i'm more ashamed of myself than ever and after this i dont think i'll be normal. I'm sorry.

Maybe its the.... well maybe... no, no!

So what that's the question lingering on my mind. So what? Why should i care? But the pain of the words still settles into my mind and it still hurts. "I dont trust him." I said.

"You dont trust anybody!" With that she just walked off. It hurt... hurt a lot. So what those are just words, yeah but coming from one of your best friends day in and day out it hurts! When you trust them and your just now learning to trust people again yeah it hurts a lot, feels like being slapped in the face of all the things i've done... stuff i'm just now getting over. It doesn't feel to good.

It's like telling a child they can't have friends, so they make some up or they go off on their own never to be seen again... void of companionship. So what? So what i'm hurting once again! So what i trusted someone and it feels like i'm being pushed down further and further... so what? So what why does it matter? and for once in my life all i can ask is this, why doesn't anyone care! Wasnt this what i wanted life alone? Not really i thought so but being pushed down back into the abyss where you've memorized every little thing that's happened that's brought you here! And to only be pushed down once again with those little words! So what?! Why should anyone care about me?! I'm just another human being!

Easy replaceable! So what?! So why shouldn't i do the thing that has crossed my mind so many times! It's not like anyone cares, its not like someone will give a crap and acutually help! So what?!

It was....

Amazing! I want to go see it again the graphics were soooo cool! and the baseball scene was great to, the song they played which happens to be on my playlist is Supermassive Black Hole and went along amazingly with the scene! The Ballet scene was amazing! I was so afraid for Bella even though i knew how it'd turn out just watching it you wanted to scream, "Edward hurry up!!!!!" and stamp your feet till he finally showed up! But it was the best movie, i expected Bella to have more emotion but then again when you read something and then see it on the big screen its a lot different. There planning on doing New Moon into a movie to and i'm going to try and figure out when they think it might be done. I'm very excited! I know Ronnie and Blade are probably just hating this post. But really guys it wont appeal to you, its more for teen girls sorry. I missed the one scene i really wanted to see cause of my stupid bladder!

Sara went to the bathroom and Angel assured me she'd let me know if anything happened that i deemed important (The whole movie haha), anyway i came back and they were just finishing the kissing scene!!!! I wanted to see that soooo bad! And Edward sparkled and looked fuzzy but it was sooo awesome! So, anyway say what you will guys but you can't bring me down when Jenny finishes up Twilight, and i finish the books Angel lent me i'm going straight back to them to read so i can have an excuse! I've read them enough times anyway it will be my 6th time for all of them but Breaking Dawn. It will be my 3rd time for Breaking Dawn.

I hope Midnight Sun will come out soon. That one is just basically Twilight but its in Edward's point of veiw and i'm hoping she'll publish it! Well hmmm i caught up on my sleep a little last night, seeing as how i fell asleep around 1 till about 5:30 then i dragged myself to bed after i turned everything off and then woke up around 9 or so. My dad told me Edward was staring at me while i slept and he was! I got a new poster so i put my new and improved Edward poster in my mom's house in my room and my old Edward poster in my room in my dad's house and if that doesnt scream obsessed, tacked next to my new Edward poster would be my ticket to the movie!

That's just about it for now, i'm going to go read some. I think Blade, Ronnie i've given you enough material to make fun of me for a life time but i really dont care. Also when my b-day rolls around not only will i be 17 i'll also own the Twilight Soundtrack, that's right, ticket tacked to my wall, posters, shirt and the Soundtrack! Yes and all the books what can ya say? I'm a fan! Ok, i think i'm going to stop while i'm ahead! Goodbye!

Drabbles Prt. 7

Went to see Twilight with Sara, Angel and Rachel and Jenny! it was amazing!!!!!!!!!!!! Edward looked like he had been dipped in glitter and as Angel said he was fuzzy! Ahahaha, ok so i wont give anything away if you might be planning to see it but all i will say is this, its fast paced and it really doesnt follow the book but oh well! So afterwards we went to the mall and once again i got another Edward poster!!!! yay! and then we dropped Jenny off and went to everyone's house to get their clothes so we could spend the night at Sara's it was pretty awesome! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dompotjTeIA Ronnie i think you'd enjoy this! its a spoof its really funny!!!! ahahaha ok well lets see Sara has a cat named Bella!!!!! Ok well i'm off goodbye! Drabbles part 7 is staring at Edward's glittery body!

Ugh... ow!

Ow ok i have a major headache guys its seriously just pounding aganist the left side of my skull. yeah sometimes i just get headaches on one side of my head weird i know! ahhh its just like pounding grrr! yum i have a salad its sooo yummy and french dressingy! with crutons and cheese!!!!!!!!!! lots of cheese! i have nothing more to say bye!

Drabbles prt. 6

So ummm yeah Ronnie, Blade.... THAT'S THRALL!!!!!!!!!!!! I have loads of comments i could say but i'm going to keep my mouth shut and kick both of your butts tomrrow COUNT ON IT!!!!!!!!! Drabbles part 6 is getting its but kicked!

Drabbles prt. 5

Do you ever go to your closet pick out an outfit and wonder if you wore that last week? Like today for church i couldnt figure out if i wore a skirt or my black slacks! So i called my aunt who replied, "I thought you wore a skirt.... well i'm not sure. Oh well if i dont remember honey then chances are they wont remember it!" She had a point! But seriously do you ever do that and go, "Wait... didnt i wear this last week?"

Da ja vu! Oh and tonight you must watch Comedy Central at 9!!!!!!!!! JEFF DUNHAM!!!!!!!! He's a ventriloquist. Really funny Achmed the Dead Terriost if that rings a bell or Peanut! Its from 9-10 and then the same one comes again from 10-11. Its a Christmas specail! Me, mom and Aunt Kathy are all going to watch it together weeeheee! i'm so excited! ooohhhh 10 minutes before it comes on!!!!! yay! and Nov. 21st Twilight!!!!!!!!! Oh and i found this little cartoon i think you Twilight haters *eyes shift to Ronnie and Blade* might like!

This is different.

I'm going to take a break from my drabbles and just write something... well i guess meaningful? I'll take a break from the guy/s i'm crushing on, but i'm very sad. Yes this post is about a guy but a different someone i've known all my life. Yep my brother Aaron my hero i secretly look up to. My mom's talking to him on the phone now and she said something about him and Katie getting married maybe one day! I'll admit it, i'm jealous of the girl she sees him everyday and i dont! He's always at school, with her, or work! When i do see him we dont talk, i mean but still sometimes i really miss him, well ok i always miss him.

He's my brother and ya know i'm so used to him barging into my room while i watch tv or read and demand my attention while we play video games, i miss him coming in my room armed with sock 'em boppers and pounding me with the soft cushion of them while i'm on the phone, miss him taking my diary and running with it while i chase him down screaming for him to give it back. I miss it all! We dont play video games or hang out anymore like we used and as usual my mom was right when she said i'd miss him when he left! Ugh, it sucks. i know we didnt always get along but still he's my brother and i just want to hang out again.

I know he loves me and wont admit it, but what brother will admit to his annoying little sister (yes i'll admit i annoy him among others) that he loves her? No brother unless their drunk! In which case i'm sure some might have memory loss and forget who there siblings are, much less everything else that clouds their drunken stupor! But that's not the point! What i'm saying is i really do realize now what my mom was saying when she told he wasnt always going to be here. I took it for granted and trust me it sucks! Even though yeah sometimes i wished i was an only child i'm glad i'm not. So Aaron didnt talk to me about my secrets and listen to me when i'm down but he did pester me to hang out with him, he knew our time was limited yet i thought we had all the time in the world!

But you have to grow up sometime and Aaron's 19 he's certainly grown up a lot. Well sorry if i've bored you i just needed to get this off my chest.

Drabbles prt. 5

Ok so guys question here. So the guy i like he's been looking at me sorta like he's interested and when i catch him looking at me he looks down or away like he's embarrassed at being caught. Soooo yeah well my question is this, ok well i have two questions, number one what would you do if a girl winked at you? I mean like would you get the courage to go talk to her or what? And my other question how do you know if a guy likes you? i mean what do you think? sorry i just want to talk to him so bad but i'm so terrified and i have a fear of talking to new people its unreal! My friends have all offered to talk to him for me but i'm so afraid! I mean seriously! his room is right across from my 1st period class and he goes down the 200 hallway after lunch like i do! Soooo what do you think i should guys? Wink or not? My dad came up with it saying he'd probably get the courage to talk to me if i did. I thought smiling but i dont know. Ok so would a guy prefer a wink or a smile? Help me out guys! i need to better understand your complicated minds! and Ronnie i'll kill you if you put something sarcastic!!!!!!!!!!! Drabbles part 5 was winged away by a foul beast.

Drabbles prt. 4

So correct me if i'm wrong here. If you kill someone aren't you sorta going to be getting into more trouble anyway? I mean i could be wrong i usually am but still! Doesnt killing someone just make things worse? Why do we even do it?! I mean for money, drugs, women? (guys that last one was for you!) Seriously its so pointless! Ugh, but whatever its what people will do. But i'd be terrified to kill someone i mean really! How does it help solve anything?

Well whatever also something i want to ask you guys! Ok so i like this guy and he's younger than me, maybe about 2 years... if a girl dates a younger guy what does it look like to other people and to guys? My friends could care less but i talked to one of my guy friends Josh and he said it'd make me look like i wanted something from him because he's younger! Hello i'm not a teacher! (you have to admit that one was good!) But to you guys what do you think? What do you see? Sorta just wanna throw that up there for you guys, won't change my mind but i'd like to know your opinion! Drabbles part 4 canceled.

Drabbels prt. 3

Why?! Why?! And once again why?! Everyone has the same names over and over its so annoying! Lets get creative here people instead of the same 'ol Josh, Chelsey, Jessica, Chris, sometimes Kaitlin or with a C if your prefer it that way! Lets think outside the box k?! I however am going to try and start a tradition for me! I'm going to get people to call me by my middle name which is Rose because i'm tired of people saying that name and it not be the right Chelsey! Its super annoying! People like Jasmine, Blade and yes even you Ronnie have nothing to worry about! Amber either and Sara ok we can lay off that to and Jenny has nothing to worry about Angel? Nope! how about Wyatt? Not really! Lets get creative!!!!!!!!!

Next year for my senior year i'm going to get the teachers to call me by Rose, hopefully if all goes well that's what people will call me! *Sigh* i have no problem with my name but seriously there are so many and i haven't heard a Rose being called yet! So lets hope this all goes well! If not i can't say i tried. Drabbles part 3 has met its match.

Detox 101

Yep i think i'm finally going through it, i will Drabble just not right now. I have a lot on my mind and seeing everyone so down today has finally, i think made me crack! I'm down, so very down right now that i dont even think Jazz's cheery words can bring me up from my slums! I mean seriously, i knew this would happen. I knew i would get attatched, i knew i would believe every lie he told me, i knew i would fall for him once again, i knew that he would stop texting and i would alone to face this once again, i knew it all and yet i pushed it to the depths of my mind so i could focus on now! So i could focus on him, and him alone!

My mind was screaming for me to not do this, reminding me of all the times as my friends had and yet my heart was pounding whole and with such joy i couldnt refuse. Saying something is so much easier than having to act upon it. And of course like a spoil sport Jazz reminded of what i was supposed to do, he's gone and as predicted i'm going through detox, acutually i thought it would have happened sooner like on Saturday and i had Jess to cheer me up if i needed her, but it held off until now.

I thought maybe it wont, but it was waiting for the right time to spring up on me and shout every thing about him that i love, and i know with everything, every broken part of me i have to move on and i have to forget... but i have to remember first, i have to remember and i have to deal with it in a healthy way and that's going to be so hard for me. I'm terrified of letting go because i have an excuse with him now, why i'm afraid to love, i can blame on him and why i'm just afraid of even the word i can blame on him! Why would i want to give all that up?! Why?!

It's so much easier to pin the blame on him then to have to relearn love and relearn trusting someone you cared for that has shattered until you resemble nothing! How can i trust again? How can i realize not all guys are like that? And as people say there are plenty of fish in the sea, what if they're all like that? What if i dont want a fish? What if instead i want a prince? I dont want to love some slimy creature that can't remember anything but what he wants and thinks he needs and when he doesnt get it swims away! i want someone to pull me out of this pond and to make me theirs.

To heal this broken heart and to not break it again because i'm afraid! I'm afraid to love and i'm afraid to date, i want someone who will mend me and not break me who will just be there for me. Wether he come now (that would be nice) or later but who will be there for me when i can't be there for myself. When i can no longer stand and i'm tired someone who will pick me back up, i want that and instead i'm in a pond infested with disgusting nasty fish! I want to be out of here, my clothes are soggy, my hearts broken, and i'm pretty sure the fish know my motives! And they seem to be pulling me downwards making it harder for them to reach... making it harder for my prince. But like i said, there are no happy endings.

Drabbles prt. 2

I dont get it! what's up with celebs? why do we care so much about them anyway?! Half of them ok wait 99% of them arent even good role modles anyway! are we trying to justify ourselves by laughing at what stupid stuff they do? Or what, seriously what's up with it? I dont get it and i think its stupid! ok yeah i laugh at some of the stupid stuff they do but seriously! there about as good as hobos! Ugh! Drabbles prt. 2 done!

Drabbles

So does anyone but me not see what's wrong with this picture?! Ok so i guess i should explain what i mean since there is obviously not a picture present! I left my phone at home, i'm always texting or talking on it, either way its with me and i forgot it and left it at home! See what's wrong with that picture? I blame it on Mondays! Yes drabbles a new series i'm posting up here, why? Because i feel like it and i drabble a lot in my head so why not keep a record of it and write some of it down? It could be useful later right? Haha yeah i doubt it to! Since mainly what goes through my head isn't really worth trying to remember.

Do you ever just think of something and as soon as you think it you lose it? It sucks, once when Aaron was dating one of my friends Destiny, we all (meaning Haley, Destiny's sister and Destiny was the one he was dating Aaron and me) used to get on the phone and just talk well i was going to say something i forgot! I thought i'd remember it later but even when we got off the phone i didnt remember! to this day i still dont remember!!!!!!! AND ITS BEEN LIKE A YEAR NOW!!!!!!! Yeah i know that's pretty bad!

Anyway..... sorry that word drabbles is a weird word... weird is a weird word..... ok all words are weird! and so am i!!!!!! Ok so this concludes my drabble!!!!! goodbye!

How about we dont!

This is what my second post? yeah i think it is.... no idea why i care but today has just gone in a blur! I watched anime for a while then i went and took a nice nap, i never take naps unless somethings wrong, so that was a shocker! i got about 2 hours of sleep, it was nice! i was sorta conscious through most of it anyway, which was kinda weird. I mean i knew i was sleeping but i could hear everything! The TV in the living room, Ace and Rosie's tags hitting against their collars, mom talking to them, yep i could hear it!

then i got up and tried to watch some more anime but i ended up on the couch with the TV on waiting for my mom and Aunt Kathy to get home with some food. then i did homework and got Kathy to help me with my Physical Science benchmark which might i add made a 56 on! yep i suck at Science soooo I'm getting help with the problems i didn't finish tomorrow... i hope he lets us finish that movie! if he doesn't I'll probably accidentally fall asleep in his class 'cause I'm so tired.

My tummy's not feelin to well so... yeah.... it sucks oh well I'll be somewhat better tomorrow just ill. so if i yell at you for no reason whatsoever that i can think of, sorry! and i do love you!!!!!!!! ^^ i wish i could hug someone right now i don't know why i just want to! hahaha. ok I'm going to randomly write a poem! or whatever comes out!

Can You?

Piece by piece it breaks and falls,
To the ground where it sinks,
Shards of it lay crumpled on the floor,
Bleeding and wondering aimlessly through life is all it does.

There is no one to fix it,
No one to heal it,
No one is there... to busy for it in day to day lives,
So it stops crying out.

You can't see it,
You don't see it,
And even if you did would you take the time to notice it,
Take the time to heal it?

Probably not so onward you go,
You hear it crying so you cover your ears,
You hear it sobbing so you walk faster,
You hear it no more so you smile and continue on.

The same happens with everyone that passes by,
So a sign is posted telling people not to go that way,
Because they are to busy to fix it,
To busy to heal it, and to busy to listen to it.

Days become weeks,
Weeks become months,
And months become years,
Until one day he comes.

He removes the sign and travels the road,
He hears it so he walks faster,
He sees it so he runs to it,
He gets to it and drops the pieces one by one on the ground.

He sits down and he listens to it,
He listens as he picks the pieces up and heals it,
He listens to it as he takes it by the hand and helps it up,
He kisses it because he loves it.

It becomes whole and trusts him,
He trusts it and gives him his heart,
The heart in return takes him to his master,
And in return she gives him the heart he has mended.

He smiles and promises her his love,
She believes him and takes his hand when he offers it to her,
She smiles and wonders if fairy tales really happen,
But after a while it comes crashing down.

People come that way and the cycle starts again,
You hear it crying so you cover your ears,
You hear it sobbing so you walk faster,
You hear it no more so you smile and continue on.

I thought I told you once,
I thought I told you twice,
Listen to me now because I won't say it again,
Fairy Tales don't come true, Fairy Tales are meant to stay in books.

Fairy Tales will never come true,
Don't believe in them,
Don't get your hopes up and have them come crashing down,
Because Fairy Tales don't come true and sometimes you won't get that happily ever after.

Because everyone knows there are no happy endings.

I should be... i should be but i'm not!

I should be mad, angry and most of all betrayed! But i'm not, i love her to death because she's my sister and i know all in all she cares for me! Jazz has always been there for me and if she says she's not leaving my side i believe her. But what if he leaves her side? What if he breaks her heart? I wont be stuck at home any more because i'll get to his house one way or another and he will take his final breath! He better not hurt her, because if i'm left picking up the pieces which i will do, i'll be hating him with every fiber of my being! normally i dont hate people because the Bible says not to but it'll be hard not to!

Jazz has been there for me through so much and, now i'm going to be there for her! i dont trust him, i dont like him... but i'll tolerate him to the point he breaks her heart! she's my sister and i'm looking out for her! so dont mess with me!!!!!!

Friday...

It's Friday and he still has yet to make contact with me, Saturday is the day i cannot make contact and answer anything that has to with him! It makes me sad but i'm going to try really hard! I'm spending the night with Jess tonight so that might help a little bit when i go through detox on Saturday. *Sighs* oh well it can't get any worse....... can it?

Welcome...

Welcome, welcome again i might add. For some reason i think i have another date with doom, another date where my heart gets shattered... once again. Even though i keep saying I'll be ok and fine Jazz seems to point out to me that last time, and the last after that! Even though i see her point, its not changing anything I'll be fine and the more i say it the more i believe it! So I'm a little screwed up from last time, doesn't matter my hearts not whole anyway and time and patience just isn't my thing! The more i say it the more i believe that i really will be fine, but seriously what's wrong with me?

After calling out my faults i felt so venerable! "You said you'd give him one more chance! You did and now your doing it again." She said... and then i heard it... the gasp... no not that the break down and i knew she was crying... for me! But why for me?! I'm not that special, really I'm not really worth that much yet she was crying for me... for my safety? "The red stuff that drips from your wrist... yeah that's called blood!"

"Haha that's funny Jazz." I stated.

"It's not meant to be funny." And i knew what she meant right then and there.

"Does God want you to ruin your own happiness just to make someone else happy? I don't think he does! Why are you always so selfless! You need to be a little selfish once in a while!" She stated.

I was selfish, i could be at times but this time was different and no matter what I'm just so confused. On the one hand i would destroy my own happiness to make him happy, and on the other i know God doesn't want me to do that... but how do i stop? I kept saying one more chance to her, that seemed to be the magic number... or was it 5?! "Maybe i should stop jumping to conclusions." I said and heard her sigh on the other end of the line.

I did jump to conclusions easy and i was ready for her stop pestering me about him... and i knew and still do... that what I'm doing is probably the most idiotic thing but what happens when the one who broke you is the only one who can repair you?! Its hard to give up anything I've ever wanted and dreamed of having and until someone comes up and accuses me of my fraud... and who lets me yell and scream and cry and doesn't give me advice who actually just listens and pats me on the back or just holds me and lets me cry... that'll be the day they hear about my life and about how I'm screwing it up! Because apparently i do that all to well! I'm sorry if i want him to be happy! I'm sorry if i would demise my own happiness for his but i care about him so much and would do anything for him and he knows that!!! But is Jazz right? Is she right when she says he using that to his advantage? So much to think about.... so little time.

On the outside looking in.

Do you ever feel like that? That your on the outside looking in? It sucks really, I'm not emotionally strong i'll say that for one and for number two i have a horrible habit of taking peoples problems and trying to solve them. Something that i'm not getting better/learning not to do. I always feel like i can solve someones problem now matter how big it is... guess you could say i'm trying to play God. I dont mean to its just i dont like seeing people down. I think that's mostly why i'm down a lot these days, i see all my friends and there problems and they become mine to the point i have to have someone slap me and tell me i cant solve their problem and to just get over it!

Even then i'm by their side anyway trying my best to help them. Could it be the type of person that i am? Or is it that i'm just so obsessed with them and their problems and trying to fix it that i would demise my own happiness just to help? and by help i mean make worse because i seem to be doing that a lot lately. Well its a good thing people hardly take my advice, heck far i dont even think i'd take my own advice and that says a lot... or does it?

Oh well, anyway that's mostly why i'm getting a job in the Health field anyway, i just want to help people. I like when people depend on me sometimes... ya know? it just makes me feel needed instead of the usual outside looking in. I know that seems completely silly and it probably is but i just want to help people so bad i would destroy any chance of happiness to make them feel better... i think i might be OCD... a little anyway what do you guys think?

But am i the only one who does that? please tell me i'm not! and if i am refer me to the best crazy doctor you know because i think i should be in there! I hear they serve brownies on Wed.... just kidding! Or am i? hmmm yes that would seem to be the question before you... or us... or me.... crap i'm confused again... i'm also going through text withdraw. I left my cell phone at my dads house so i cant text but i am however watching anime. Ouran High School Host Club to be exact. they did have it in japanese and i've seen it before in japanese then they did it in english and Vic (whose last name i now know how to say but wont spell because i can't) plays as Tamaki isnt that just wonderful?! Ok well.... hmmm its halfway done loading so i'm off to finish episode 2! bye now!

I've just noticed something.... i get off topic way to easy!

hahaha have fun reading this! its in different colors... mwahahaha although i'm not sure how that's evil.... it just is keh?

Stray

I can't seem to write it anymore... and I dont want to give it up. I think i've already given up a Place to Call Home, I need ideas and i dont have them. I've tried taking breaks but evertytime i do another story idea pops into my head so i have to stick with Stray! *sigh* I'm not sure what to do about it anymore and it makes me sad because i love that story! One of the stories i really like is that one, it could use more detail but i love it! I mean its one story i can look at and say, "Its truly an amazing story." Others i just can't! I think i do pretty good poems but stories... stories are life!

And for whatever reason i can't seem to think of anything for Stray! If you have ideas please help me! I'm desperate! if this story isnt the best then i dont know what to do! I've always dreamed that i would have at least one of my stories published! It probably wont be that one but before i die i'd like to have at least something published that way i know i've done something amazing! well amazing to me anyway, so if you have ideas please, please, please help me?!

Been wondering....

Where i am? Probably not, but i'll tell you anyway i was at my dads. So i havent been able to check my stuff in 2 days! My mom and aunt are currently in S.C attending a Gather's Concert and should be home sometime tonight! Anyway i've been babysitting the dogs this whole time! Anyway i'm currently on here and myspace checking my stuff. lets see theres really nothing to blog about for the simple fact, Friday when i got the dogs Sara dropped me off at the house, my dads because everyone was gone! i had the pups then and when Dad came home we watched tv together and we watched Family Guy... ok well i did anyway! He kept asking me every 2 seconds if they always used lanuage like that.

Ok so maybe not every 2 seconds but it sure felt like it! Hmm i need a new anime to watch, does anyone watch anime? I'm going to start Wolf's Rain again because i never finished it, then Full Metal Alchemist again i never finished that one either and then to Trinity Blood i watched the first half that episode and then stopped to go take a bath. Ok well i have a fun filled day ahead! oh well i might even try Code Gease... and i have to figure out when Ouran High School Host Club comes out in english so i can watch that again! ok well i'm off bye!