Not a great week

This week has turned out to be horrible! Wether its the rain that has me down, or constant cold i'm not really sure. I find myself sitting in class wondering, why i'm even taking Physical Science, i'm no good at it! First test i got back, 62! I'm probably already failing, i dont know why i even have to take the stupid class! A couple of my friends told me you have to take it to graduate! Honestly i feel like an idiot in there, i'm probably the only one who doesnt get it!!!! I'm great at Biology but when it comes to learning speed, acceleration, velocity i'm at a loss wondering why i'm even in here.

Its hard and i'm always confused, i just sit there and act like i understand when i know i shouldnt do that. i know i should ask the teacher, or at least go after school and get some help but i'm afraid because i dont want people to make fun of me. I'm usually good, well i thought i was, at stuff like this. i knew i was going to fail the test anyway, but that's not the point when i took it i was in such a depressed state. I had been crying all morning when Jazz broke the news to me, nothing about her but someone we knew.

"No... no." I said backing up. "He can't." He was supposed to be the strong one out of all of us. Its not like we hadnt talked about death before, it was just this time seemed different. And some people well one girl in pitcular has been putting her nose where it shouldnt be, and i'm frankly getting tired of it! I'm tired, and i'm stressed, and i'm failing Physical Secience probably. I dont understand anything in there it feels like.

Today was ok, i've had worse... yesterday was probably the worst. Jess and Jazz were super worried about me, telling me to just go home if i couldnt handle school anymore. Everyone was at work so there was no way i was able to get home, unless i snuck out of the school building and rushed to my car. Even then i'm not sure if i would have made it home without bursting into tears.

Today Mr. Pederson hit his hand with a hammer, well he had a huge rock on top of his hand then he used the hammer and hit it. He said it didnt hurt, but i sorta understood mass but not by much so far my favorite subjects are all but Physical Science because unlike in there i understand pretty much what i'm doing. In English III we're reading The Cruicible, or however you spell that if i spelled it wrong. I'm Elizabeth Proctor, U.S. History we're taking notes, watching the Animaniacs song to learn the presidents, and having fun, lunch well you eat in there... funny story to go with that. and in Bio Med Tech we're taking notes and listening to music and watching House.

Ok back to lunch. Today Nikki had her camera out, Jess hid from the camera and i tried, i like getting photos of me but if i look like crap i dont! Anyway there's this guy who as Jazz mentioned has his legs shaved.... or was it Nikki? anyway we either think he's on the swim team or he hasnt quiet hit puberty yet. But he's adorable!!!!! 9th grader who looks like a 5th grader! so Nikki got a picture of him! and she zoomed it on him and showed us and of course our whole table was like, "Awwwwww!" and we kept passing it around and saying how cute he looked and how much we just wanted to hug him and pinch his cheeks!

And then Jazz was like, "What if he sees us looking at that? I didnt do anything!"

"We'll just tell him your stalking him Nikki!" I laughed.

"I knew that shadow was following me!" Jazz said imatating what he might do. We laughed and then the bell rang and we had to go to class. But other than Physical Science everything's pretty cool.