It goes a little something like this! Just had to say that, lately i've been... hmmm well i guess distant. I've been venturing out on my own with other friends... just Andie and BlAde and work has been singing the same tune that if i dont show up they'll fire me so i must go in. But apparently in a former life when i was Bulma i dated Jeremy (Yamcha) and married Bobby (Vageta) and had a kid with him, praying its Matt, (Trunks). So my life is nothing special i go in the 28th for placement testing at 2. Friday i'm scampering off with Andie to the lake and if its ok with her BlAde will join us and we'll pack us a nice picnic.
I dont know really what else to say except everything on here seems to be like really depressing. I can't believe i'm going to college i'm so scared. I wanna meet new people and branch out and finally experience life! I just want to spread my wings and fly, but i'm a shy person so the chances of me making new friends right off the bat will be 0-0! Oh well, lately its like i've been... i dont know it feels like ditching my old friends but i just have no desire to hang out with them i have my reasons why but i wont say them on here.
My only question is what if i give them up? ... What if we never speak again? Then what if i want to spend time with them, would they welcome me back or shun me? Lately i've been dealing with those questions, and many more some are outspoken and some i just sit there and play nice wishing to get away. I feel like the Plague, eh just me being i dont know paranoid or is it because i'm tired? Sometimes i dont know if i really wanna go into the medical field... i feel the passion of writing which is so strong and i just want to write for the rest of my life but i dont know anymore! I cant just all of sudden say hey i cant do this! I want to do writing not the medical field but i can't and won't say anything because even i dont know if that's what i truly want to do but even as i write this its something i'll always want to do.
I'll always want to write and i'm passionate about it, i want that to be my job i want to write books to be an author but i'll be a good girl and get my medical degree since when did writing ever earn any money anyway?
Saturday, July 24, 2010
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Posted by Rosebud at 9:19 PM
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Hey, hey. Writing earns tons of money if you are successful, which I'm sure you will be if you don't give up on it. I mean...JK Rowling is quite possibly the richest woman on the planet...she's going head to head with Oprah (a billionaire). Don't give up on your dreams and don't give up on other people. Your life will be fabulous and you will be successful. I still think you should get a medical degree because, well, it's just something to earn money while you are finishing your debut million dollar novel. :) You will be great. Don't let anyone, including yourself, tell you any different. :)
who said you had to pick? you can go into medicince and be a writer. because what if you dont make it in the writing career? youll always have the other one to fall back on.
i know how you feel about the friends thing. i went through that too, remember? ive wanted to hang with angel a ton because through out the whole 11th grade she ignored me and now shes moving so i wanna spend as much time with her as possible. i know that spending too much time with someone can bring you down. me and olivia used to be pretty close but now i really dont wanna hang with her anymore.
just do what ever makes you happy and i'll be here if you fall. dont be afraid to jump into the world head first, its the only way to experience it. youll never live if you dont
sorry for the long comment
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