Goodbye forever?

I dont know maybe it was the food that made me dream what i did, or maybe i was in need of a good nightmare. As if i had been sleeping to soundly and to good these days i needed a nightmare to make my world more balanced. Either way i dreamed, i dreamed that i was in school and for whatever reason Mrs. Dellinger the libary teacher i think is her name was teaching our class not Mrs. Atchely either that or she was watching us.

Blade came in and sat beside and started showing me his newest city he had drawn up and i looked to Kaitlin Nagle and asked her if i was the only one who could hear Blade and see him and she looked at me kinda funny and said yes. I knew he was dead, it started to eat at me, my heart compeltely broke and i was going insane. I couldnt cry no tears came from my eyes, maybe i had cried them all out but i do rememeber my heart outside my dream having a hard time beating because i felt like i couldn't breathe.

My mom was more worried about a potential job i had to get more hours and my dad kept saying, "I know, i know." she didnt want me to mess up this interveiw but inside slowly i was dying and no one cared. He was gone and no one but me was greiving.

Finally i woke up and heard my mom ruslting around in the kitchen, i got up went to the bathroom went to my room, unplugged my phone and cried waiting for her to leave for work because i truly believed Blade wasnt alive. I called him around 5:10 and he answered but that didnt convince me as i tried to ask if i could come get him and take him back with me because i just had to make sure! He misunderstood me and asked his mom if i could come over, he told her that i called and was freaking out about a dream and what he thought had to do with my mom and that i was hyperventaliting and i was.

I couldnt hardly get control of myself. I rushed over when i had everything done, parked my car and out popped Blade from his house. I got out of my car walked then ran up the steps and hugged him. He was alive and breathing and i cried with relief because i needed someone to tell me it was all going to be ok. The two previous nights we didnt really get to talk on the phone, first night i had to study for a test and i needed all the time i could get, and last night he was dog tired.

It was good we went into the house and snuggled on his bed till about 6:30 when we went to my house and i finished packing my lunch and got my things together and we headed off to school. I got up an hour early and he got up 30 mins early but it was worth it to me, i just had to know. I didnt believe him over the phone yeah i know its stupid but i didnt, i just needed to make sure! To really make sure he was still here with me. I'm not crazy am i for doing that?