Collide

Grabbing onto something... anything

Gasping for breath she's pushed under

Greeted by Misery and Sorrow she's forced to grab hold and rely on them

They slowly bring her up

Gasping for breath she shivers and lies down for a while... only a while

It couldnt hurt... could it?

Nothing to warm her up but listing to the constant bickering of Hate and Rage soothes her

She's gone to a dreamless sleep

Depression rocks her back and forth comfortering her, holding her... soothing her

"No need to leave just yet... stay a while longer yes?" Pride insists.

She sits down and thinks back... memories flood her over crowded mind

She's crippled... the Pain holds her down, Problems struggle and Fight with her

She reaches up but no one tries to help her... no one will save her

She cries out, struggles.... "Please! Please help me!" She cries

Tears... salty and clear run down her cheeks

"Please.... please." She's slowly giving up...

No one will help her... save her.... no Knight in shinning armour...

Just a boy with a pretend sword and prentend feelings

He just watches... watches as her world collides and crumbles

He smiles... Victory is his

havent seen this place in a while

i havent blogged in a while and i thought i might as well. Things havent been going as good as i'd like for them to and i've been leaning on Myspace for my blogging needs lately. Sorry i just dont really see the thrill here anymore, sorry i know your probably like, "Keh" or "whatever" but that's ok... i really have nothing to say... bye i guess

To all you Nightwish fans

Hello! For all you Nightwish fans i have some interesting and good news, Nightwish is coming to Charlotte NC at Tremont Music Hall Tickets are $25 and i'm trying to get a big group to go so if your interested let me know! thanks!

XBox 360 Vs. Nintendo 64 (Mario the game)

Contrary to what Ronnie says i personally say that the Nintendo 64 is better! I basically grew up with Mario! and Star Fox Adventures, so i don't even know what really an XBox 360 is all i know is that its a gaming system, I've never played it. I've never had one and i have no earthly idea what the contraption does! what it can or can't do and if i spill water on it will it burst into flames?! Sorry, anyway i have no idea what it is!

All i know is you can you play games on it, I've never played Halo (any of them) in my life, I've never heard of the game until this year! i skip commercials. Now Halo may be the best game in the world but I've never played it so i wouldn't know! When i was like 14 or 15 was when i first heard about the XBox, so that was like a year or so ago i think that's when they first came out in the U.S. wait a sec.

OK so it was first available in 2005, so i was 14! I did not grow up with the XBox, so i don't have a tendency to cling to it and the games like its my love. Now the Nintendo 64 yes, I've played Mario 64 and I've played Paper Mario, Mischief Makers, Rugrats go to Paris, Wave Race 64, Blast Corps, Pokemon Snap, Pilot Wings 64 (that was a fun game!), Snowboard Kids, Banjo Kazooie, Banjo Tooie (sequel to Kazooie), and Cruisin USA, and many more!

That's where my brother and i got our saying from when we were little. When we were on a surfboard in the pool we would stand on it and shout, "Surfin USA!" and topple into the water. But we were only up there long enough to get the A out before we fell, so if you wanted to yell it you had to do it and do it fast! Yea we sorta took Cruisin away and put Surfin since that was what we were doing.

Halo doesnt even compare to the Mario Parties! We have every Mario Party starting from 1-3 on the Nintendo 4-7 on the Gamecube, now all we need is the Wii and we'll get the 8th one! our family loves Mario Party! That is the most fun game they have ever come out with!

But dont take my word for it, love the gaming system you love! and if you have one of the original 64's keep it and play it often! we have 2, but one died on us so we now have one and a bunch of controllers that dont work and 1 that does. so i'm very happy with that system and the Gamecube! we have like 2 of everything! haha its so weird! 2 Playstation's (one is the 2nd and the new 3rd one with 80 GB, 2 Gamecube's and 2 64's) Its amazing really, so take care of your system's and love what you love!

Searching other blogs

Its weird i was just meandering around other blogs a moment ago, just to see what was going on. It was really interesting i came upon several non English speaking ones, i didn't comment afraid that if i did they'd freak out! i was just browsing around, one in particular caught my attention the first one i went to talked about the person fasting... no food or water for several days... makes you wonder what kind of cultures do that and where he's from.

I know the Jewish fast, i think they do... I'm not Jewish so i would have no idea but still makes you really wonder about them... or maybe just me. But anyway it was really interesting one girl was a Senior in College and her about me said she'd been scrap booking since 8th grade... I've been meaning to look into that... i want to, people seem to enjoy it and i wanna learn how and see if i like doing it.

I used to make necklaces and bracelets i haven't gotten any beads and stretchy string in a while so i haven't been able to do that, one of my friends makes her own jewelry! and she's very good at it to, that and drawing! so i would love to learn how to make earrings! there are so many things I've always wanted to learn to do... but I've never had the time to learn them.

so once again I'm stuck like chuck (as my mom always says) i found a book i think it was at Micheal's if I'm not wrong, and it was how to make your own jewelry (I.e. Earrings, necklaces... etc.) So like any other of my ideas that one fell through, usually my plans aren't that good in fact they sort of suck! to be honest. but that's part of me being me, coming up with sucky plans that either fall through or are forgotten like my dusty binder that have countess stories in them.

I've failed on everyone of those! my mind just can't focus i thought i had one good story going and i didn't even make it past the second page and its already falling apart never to return again! Thanks to no other than myself! But i suppose that's what you get when you decide to take on writing for me anyway.... for me its a huge task that takes a couple years for me to even remember where i was going with it! and i have to be really dedicated to it for me to even think about it and to try and finish it, but there you go again with my forgetfulness!

I'm currently working on two new pieces both being anime, i find it best when i work with anime type stories i find them enjoyable and easy to work with. i get great feed back from friends and my dad (i don't read it to anyone in my family but my dad) no one criticizes me and says its anime.

I just want people to accept my stories and stop looking with the anime eye! If you think its to anime don't tell me! I want you to look at it with a critical eye and stop saying things that make it anime it ticks me off!

My mom did that to me once, and i even told her it was an anime fanfic and she was like, "Its really anime... and really fantasy!" that's how it was supposed to be! but i can understand since she doesn't watch anime, only anime readers and watchers really understand my anime fics haha those two are the ones I'm currently working on right now.

But i wont bore you with those details instead I'll leave you on a good note, my mom and aunt were outside letting the dogs use the bathroom, and my aunt has bought this infernal clicker! and when she first bought she kept clicking it! and it was driving me insane! i thought i heard her doing that but instead she was using the hammer to hit the dogs stake (we use to chain the dogs up to let them do their business, no we don't use chains we use leashes!) and i ran out there and i yelled, "Would you stop!" and my mom stopped for a minute and was like, "What?!" and i walked out enough to realize she was putting the stake in a different spot and it wasnt that stupid, irratating clicker!

Of course i apologized and told her i thought it was that infernal clicker my aunt Kathy had bought, but Kathy reassured me and told me that Ace had been doing good with the clicker and that Rosie had lost her mind.... when doesnt she? (Rosie wearing her Strawberry hoodie) Ace and Rosie

Aaron (graduating day) and his girlfriend Katie

Job Hunting

So i've been job hunting and so far i've turned in two applications! 1 for Cato's the other for Fatz. So now i'm going to go up to Aunt Bessie's and see if i can't get an application, i found out you have to be 18 to work at Wal- mart and 18 to be a waitress at Fatz, but you have to be 16 to work as a Hostess so i signed up for that. it looks like i'm either going to get a job at a grocery store or i'm going to be jobless all summer!

18 seems to be the magic number right now, so i wish i were 18 maybe i'd get a job then! But i havent lost hope yet, 3 applications if i dont hear from any of them soon, i'm going to go to a grocery store and see if they can't hire me! *sighs* i really dont want to though but if i have to i have to.

Changing your back ground, simple as 1,2,3

Ok i found it! Mrs. D was curious on how i changed my background so instead of putting it all in a comment i found the orginal instructions i had posted up so once again for those of you want to change your background here ya go!

Hey hey everyone! yes i changed my background and i'm going to tell you how to! WARNING IT WILL DELETE THE CLASS LIST SO YOU MAY WANT TO WRITE DOWN EVERYONE'S BLOGGER AGAIN, I JUST FOUND IT OUT SO BEWARE YOU WILL LOSE THE CLASS LIST, POLLS, SLIDESHOWS, PLAYLISTS BUT YOU CAN GET THEM BACK!

http://www.pimp-my-profile.com/ click there, before you do that! GET A NEW WINDOW! now are you there? Ok good, now scroll down till you see LAYOUTS there should be ones for 4 diff. sites click on the Blogger Templates its above the Blogger icon! DO NOT CLICK ON THE BLOGGER ICON YOU WILL GO STRAIGHT TO BLOGGER!Ok once your there, scroll down till you see all the types of layouts, FYI: Animals, Anime and this (383) means how many layouts there are!

ok you there? pick a couple that you like, write down the page # there on, SOME OF THESE TEMPLATES WILL NOT WORK! That's why its very important to pick more than one!When you find the layout you like there are 3 choices under it, Preveiw, Tweak it! Bookmark, Details and Code. Click on Details and Code.

You there? Ok scroll down and you'll see a bigger picture of the layout under it has instructions on what you need to do! Simply hit Customize, go to layout and Edit HTML. Once you've copied your code then put it in the edit template, if it works it will erase your polls and playlist but dont worry you can put those back up! if it wont work then keeping trying diff. ones you like until it works... enjoy!

Fallen

Fallen
Could it be possible for an angel to have fallen from grace? To never fly once more? Try all she might she couldn't fly, normally it just came to her! But.... today it didn't.... why today of all days?! She tried again and her wings fluttered uselessly. Sighing Annette hopped up on the roof of an old run down house and began to cry. "Annette! Hey Annette where are you?" a male voice shouted. Annette looked up startled to see a boy. He had long black hair that he kept in a ponytail, his coal black eyes were kind and full of life. His black cloak touched the ground and swept in the light breeze. His face still had some child left in it but was filling out nicely as he was growing into a man. "Annette! Annette!" He called again.

Annette stopped her daydreams and answered him, "I'm up here Lee." She called waving her hand to as if he could see her better that way. Lee smiled as he saw her wings light up a brilliant white, she was happy... and pure... full of innocence. Lee climbed up the old run down ladder and crawled over to Annette. He sat beside her and lightly took her hand in his as he always did, normally Annette wouldn't have minded but today she took her hand back and placed it in her lap. Lee stared at her for a moment but said nothing more... something was bothering her... if she wanted to tell him she would... or so he hoped.

"What's wrong?" Lee asked after about a minute of watching Annette's nervous look. Plus the fact that she was biting right through her lower lip.

"Umm..." Annette started.

"Umm what? What's wrong?" Lee asked.

"I can't... gosh this is so embarrassing... I can't fly!" Annette cried she looked over at Lee tears running down her ashen cheek. Lee put an arm around her waist and tried to draw her in, but Annette refused. She pushed him away as her wings folded on her back, she quickly climbed down the old ladder and ran as fast as she could her wings turning a bright blue as she went... Sadness.

Lee watched her go, watching as her wings turned colors as she went. "Annette." He whispered, he decided he would help Annette after all she had done for him, the least he could do would be to help her.

Each angel is different, some tend to the needs of others... those are called Guardian Angles, some Guardian Angles are sent to be with a specific person. Whether they make themselves known is up to them... Guardian Angles are to never fall in love with the ones they are protecting doing so they will lose the ability to fly... among other things... they will loose their wings and become normal humans, Guardian Angles are there to guard the ones that are chosen for them and help them in times of need and that is all that is required of them.

Annette's feet grew tired and her legs finally gave out letting her lie in a pile of freshly cut grass, she lay there for a moment before letting the unfinished tears spill over and take her under to their realms.

my crazy summer

has been going OK.... no one's checked out my new blog.... *Sniff sniff* I'm sad. Oh well i like it but i don't know if i can continue remembering countless e-mails!!!!! i know have 4! but only 2 i use, my hotmail and yahoo accounts... even still its getting really tiring i can never just use my username or pass anymore it has to be e-mail and then pass! ahhh!!!! i wanna scream! But still, Aaron's going to the beach with Matt, James and Jeremy. But him and Matt are going tomorrow, James and Jermey already left to go there to get the room, and guess where there going?

Your right! Mrytle Beach! where everyone goes for Grad week! Well not my crew (in 2 years when we graduate) we are going to the beach but not there! My hairdresser has a cabin out on Oak Island, our youth has been there before on a youth trip, and i'm going to try and reserve it for us. So we can relax, its about a 5minute walk to the beach from the cabin anyway and a 20 minute drive to Mrytle Beach to. "I'll give you this strawberry if you keep it a secret ok?" Haha!

So right now i'm waiting for Death Note to load... *sighs* My ipods being good.... yay! usually its sooo mean but now its behaving itself like it should! never mind! well i g2g time to go to dad's bye!

hello!

hi everyone i'm currently at my friend Jasmine's house, she's got my camera and she's taking pics of herself for her myspace, which i will update when i get home and get the chance. If i didnt put this before then i'll put it now, i didnt acutally break my pinkie toe we think i cracked it or sprained it really bad but the swelling has gone down but it is still purple.... ok well that's all for now bye! ^^

New blog!

i have a new blog up its devoted to Stories, Short Stories and Poems so if you wanna check it out here's the link! http://gaurdianofwriting.blogspot.com/ i know i spelled guardian wrong sorry! i also have it at the bottom where the class list is so go check it out! thanks!

New Blog

Hello fellow bloggers!!!!!!! I'm going to make a new blog, but i will keep this one up it'll just have posts my other one will be devoted to Stories, Short Stories, and Poems only! So i'm currently looking up layouts for my new blogger i will tell you when it is up and running, if you want to check it out. ok so good-bye for now as i have to work on my new acc.

Hmm

I'm thinking about changing my background but then i would have to put everything back up.... oh well! You know what song makes me cry, Linkin Park My December! i'm dead serious that is like the sadest song i've ever heard!!!!!!! GO LISTEN TO IT NOW!!!!!!!! It's on my playlist i'm dead serious that song is soooo sad!!!!!

I am confused

I used to think about one person in pitcular all day long, nothing ever stopped my thoughts from roaming thousands of miles away from NC all the way to SC. My mind never stopped the memories from coming to me and as usual I welcomed them as I became more involved with my ex once again. We began speaking to each other till I finally began to wonder why we broke up in the first place... that was my fault. My friends were always by my side, and when I told them they were estatic but that soon grew old and they began to tell me how they really felt. Much to my surprise I didnt stop their rantings I let it continue. "If he hurts you again I swear I'll go down there and kill him!" Amber hissed to me at Bio reveiws.

Still I couldnt stop the forming plan in my mind, as it grew and grew... without even realizing it my mind had been veiled from me and was forming a plan I had no idea about. I didnt let that stop me, I continued on my way... but it soon revealed itself to me, I had to get over him. How we be together with him in SC and me in NC? I would have to go to college to see him and besides my parents didnt aprove of him when I was dating him.... that's when I knew why I was thinking about Right and Wrong and where my loyalites lie.

'It is... ok to be sad... it's alright.' Something in my mind told me, I wasnt sad... but I wasnt exactly estatic either. Suppose my insainty was taking over? Or was my mind trying to reboot itself and forget the pain? Suppose I could live without him and find someone I truly care about? Not that I didnt care about him I did, but not in the way I used to... when it was just us... in our own world. That world I dont think could ever exsist again... when I found it, it was in ruins I was trying to pick up the pieces rebuild it when I realized you can't rebuild something that doesnt need to be rebuilt... my mind must have come up with that on its own while I was busy thinking about Right and Wrong. 'You do not wish to cry this time?' My mind wandered... I lifted my hand up to my cheek... it was dry... so I could get through this? I would be ok?

My heart racing a million miles an hour finally began to slow down, I was ok... and I would always be ok... it just took some time before I realized that I could live without him and that I needed to not only let him go but... release myself and let that part of me that wanted to stay behind do as it wished... suppose it came to its senses and followed me home? Would I cry again, or could I be happy? I am confused... so much to think about yet so little time....

short story (again no title)

"I didn't do it!" She screamed as the guards dragged her down to the King, they pushed her to her knees as she stared up at him.

"Where is my daughter and son?!" He commanded. The woman spat at him and was stabbed in the leg with a two handed sword. The bone in her leg made a sickening crunch, she screamed in agony and was drug outside to be hung. Though she had done no wrong the King was getting every last "Street Rat" and questioning them before putting them to death!

They wrapped a noose around her neck, and pulled a lever that made a trap door in the floor open up. Everyone gasped but made no move to look away, the King smiled and replied, "For those of you who think I'm kidding! I'm not! If I do not get my son and daughter back everyone last one of you will die!"

The nobles of course didn't worry, they could easily pay the guards off and go on about their merry way! But the middle class and poor class had to worry they began to form plans, and went out searching every night for the Prince and Princess.

A man around his mid twenties stood among the crowd, he had tan skin and wore a black tunic and black pants, the sun beating on him and making him sweat. His cold black eyes were dancing as he knew where the King's son and daughter were but he would never tell... not ever! He would take it to his grave if he had to! He couldn't betray his loyalty to his partner in crime Marie.

He turned as the crowd did and walked down the cobbled stones, he whistled a merry tune and greeted the frightened people one by one. No one dare move from their place to go and tell the King of their suspicion... something in the way he looked at them... made them freeze in place.

Lee turned into a bar and trudged to the back, he opened the small door and walked in only to be greeted by a dagger whizzing by his head. "Well hello Marie!" Lee greeted.

"Oh it's you! I thought it was someone else... sorry Lee." Marie smiled and sauntered over. Her tan legs showing by the short skirt she wore.

Lee bowed mockingly to the Prince and Princess who were cowering in the corner of their cell. "You... y...you... have to... le... let... us.... go!" The Prince stammered, as his sister Annette cowered behind him.

"Let..." Marie giggled, "Let you go... oh my! Oh my that is... that is so funny!" Marie laughed holding onto her sides as she felt around for Lee. Lee grabbed her arm and supported most of her and his weight as they began to laugh.

"Oh my dear Prince Johnathon... you are so funny! Let you go? Now why on earth would we do that for? My dear Prince if we kill you, there will be no heir and if there is no heir... well guess whose next for the throne?" Lee chuckled.

I may continue this later.... dont know yet... not sure if i really like it

Short Story

It was true! Once again I had fallen from God's good grace only to be hit hard by the tourtes of reality! I stood up and brushed off the latest pain I had taken, he wanted me to be happy.... SO WHY COULDNT HE ACT LIKE ANY OTHER GUY AND GET JEALOUS! I was ready to shout it at him, but I couldnt. So I settled for punching the wall until my knuckels bled. "Why! Why, why?!" I screamed at the wall, I slid down and rested my head aganist it and let the tears stream down my face.

"I hate you! I hope you know that! As if you can hear me.... who am I kidding? I love you... so much." Could it be possible for me to find someone I truly cared about? After all I was only 16, and people always said it was puppy love or a "strong affection" yeah right! I sighed and let the tears run dry, my eyes were red and puffy and I knew I couldn't leave the bathroom looking like I did.

But then I thought of something else... something I asked him... something he asked me right back. 'When did u get over me?' I text and sent it to him, the reply was short but took a minute to get there, I stared at the phone and thought about leaving the conversation hanging, but I quickly snapped the phone opened and checked the message it read, 'I aint got over you yet.'

A few more texts were sent and I as I opened the phone it read, 'When did you get over me?' I knew I had two options;
Option 1: I could lie after all it was texting he would never know!
Option 2: I could just tell him the truth... after all he deserved to know!

I quickly dismissed option 1 and picked the 2nd it might be painful but i had no choice! 'I got over u when i started to date Lee' I sent the text and instantly regretted it! It was true I knew I'd have to get over him sometime! But could I be that strong and do that? It was either date Lee, or tell him the truth and hope he didn't think I was as insane as I felt!

I dated Lee, but not for long that's probably when the 2nd bout of depression crept in... but it didn't have such a stronghold as the first one did. I couldn't let my friends see me like this... not again I had hurt them to much the first time and I wasnt about to drag them back in it!

I wiped my eyes and checked myself out in the mirror one more time... tears silently crept down like a broken faucet that continues to drip water. 'You don't look so bad.... who are you kidding you look horrible! You can't go out there and face your friends looking like that!' The voice in my head shouted enraged.

'Maybe if.... maybe if I think about... something postive... or funny?' I thought racking my brain for something! Anything... i thought about how when Isaiah was lying in my lap I just up and ran not caring if his head smacked aganist the floor of the school. Of course Roxanne later filled me in that she had told Isaiah everything that was wrong with me! Isaiah.... well... Isaiah will be Isaiah!

I giggled in spite of myself, the tears were slowly coming to a small stream, and then they finally stopped. Wiping my eyes I checked myself one more time, as I was doing so one of my friends suddenly ran in out of breath she took one look at me and hugged me to her chest. "Are you ok?" She asked.

"Fine... I just... Isaiah said something that reminded me of Sam that's all." I said and shrugged out of her arms and splashed my face with water.

"Um... ok... well if your sure... do you want me to kick Isaiah's butt for you?" Lily questioned with hopeful expression.

"No... I'm good um thanks... Lily... that mean a lot to me... you coming to check on me and all." I replied.

Lily smiled and helped me get my stuff as we left the bathroom, "No problem what are friends for?"

I smiled as we trudged to our lockers and down the hall to first period.