I'm sorry!

I havent been here a while and i'm sorry, life has just gotten in the way and plus i just havent really wanted to get on here anyway. I just dont seem to wanna get on the computer much not even Webkinz will hold my interest i just wanna sit down and read and write and draw right now. Grrr sorry i've been away i miss Jenny and Sara tons right now cause they arent at school with me but oh well i guess i'll live! ^^

Clinicals

I'm so excited for them! If i'm not wrong my dad paid for my scrubs so now they have to come in and i have to get my immunization to Mrs. Wright! I now know how to massage and oh man i need to give you one Jenny and Sara i plan on giving Blade one tomorrow if he'll hold still! Grrr i have a TB test on the 22nd and i'm not going to be to fond of that i hate needles but i'm sooooo excited!!!!! Weeeeeee! ^^

Poem

i've been feeling sorta moody today, so here's what i've come up with!



I see you on your pedstal,
The mighty you proclaim,
You want yourself to be seen so you may condem us all.

What happened to you,
You blame me for the path i chose,
You refuse to talk or even look at me now.

Did you begin to like me,
Did you start when i stopped liking you,
All these thoughts in my head confuse me making the path more hard to see.

I will forever stumble blindly,
Holding on to the rope that's broken,
And finding a message straight from you.

You dont want to be my friend anymore,
Because of how i changed,
Did anyone not tell you we all change?

You seem to think your so perfect,
But the things you cannot tell me you tell others,
And instead you hurt me more than you ever have before.

You glare at me and wont even speak to me,
So i guess that's my punishment for being myself,
I'll gladly take it as long as i dont see you again.

The pain will be sore and fester,
It may turn into hatred,
But now i hope you fall off your precious pedstal... join us on the ground.

I've been thinking.

I've been thinking a lot these past couple days. I've been thinking that maybe i'll just have Jenny and Sara over for the Apple Festival that night i have to work friday from 5-8 then on Saturday the day of i told Matt i'd work for him from 4-8 which i dont mind he hasnt had a break since Joe was there so i understand he wants some time off plus he works another job to. So much has been happening lately that i just dont know what to do anymore! Aaron's getting a motorcycle and i dont have a good feeling about it!

I love him to death he's the best brother in the world and i dont want to see him get hurt! So many other things have been going on to but i wont go into those, i'm tired of my work place so i need to go out and job hunt soon, i like when me and mom go cause she drives and we talk and i go in and fill out papers and all that good stuff but i'm just worried so much about him!

Why fight now?

So today was amazing! I got to play my very first game of D&D i had so much fun! It was awesome and i love it, Blade mostly set up my character ok well he did set up my character i just put input of weapons and armor. Well as we were about to leave the church my car wouldnt start up! I thought that was the worst of my problems! No its minor to when i got home and my mom told me Katie had broken up with Aaron. She told me not to fight with him and not to call him names. I felt horrible because they always seemed so happy together! But then again not even all relationships last, she told him she just didnt feel that spark.

He's at dads now cause he wants to be alone. I can understand that but i totally miss him and Reaper's still down at the church. Oh well so i guess we'll have to adjust now, Aaron's not gonna be textin her probably and he'll probably wanna spend maybe some time with us or with his friends you can never tell with him. I know he's sad he has to be! I miss him though, i miss him real bad but what can you do?